Everyone in my area has their thoughts centered on a single event that occurred just two days ago. An event that has brought many people to tears for the sheer horror of the situation; we all lost something that day. My best friend, Andrew, died in every parent’s nightmare-a school shooting.
He sent me text messages as it started until the end of his life. I couldn’t stop reading them over and over again, emotions overwhelming me in waves. I can’t talk to anyone about this, not even my parents-this is a very personal matter. But I need to somehow let it out, and this reddit community is the only place I know I can reach out to. That’s why I’ve decided to transcribe my dear friend’s last words to me here, completely unaltered.
Andrew: 11:42 | hey dude we have a stupid surprise lockdown rn
11:42 | wish I were home sick like you lol
Me: 11:43 | rip they usually tell you about those drills. How longs it gonna last?
Andrew: 11:44 | idk but the teachers are being super bitchy about it like they think it’s a real threat haha. They actually think their enthusiasm will make us care XD
Me: 11:45 | bruhh theyre always so annoying like that
11:50 | dont leave me on read respond already
Andrew: 11:52 | I don’t think this is a drill. They’re talking about an actual intruder and I think I heard gunshots
11:52 | Fuck
11:53 | One of the kids here said he came from the cafeteria where someone was shooting and kids were running around screaming
11:53 | Dude the girls in the classroom here with me are crying really loudly they won’t shut up
Me: 11:55 | boi you playin
Andrew: 11:55 | No dude I’m fucking serious! I think this is actually real
11:57 | I hope the police come soon. A few people said they made calls
Me: 11:58 | andew i really hope your not just fucking around this isnt funny
12:07 | dude answer me
Andrew: 12:11 | Sorry I was just asking around if anyone knew how long it would take for them to arrive. They said the nearest station is like 45 mins away but theres like a fucking accident and a roadblock on the way
12:13 | I think im scared
Me: 12:14 | holy shit dude youre so screwed if your joking
Andrew: 12:14 | i’m not! I wouldn’t joke about this sort of shit!
Me: 12:14 | oh god hang in there
12:15 | is there an exit door for you?
Andrew: 12:15 | No im in class 212
12:17 | If i jumped out the window i would break my legs since its on the second floor and be a sitting duck
12: 17 | The loudspeakers just came on and confirmed theres a shooter hes moved out of the cafeteria
Me: 12:18 | lets hope nothing happens to you…im scared
Andrew: 12:18 | How do you think i feel? Im fucking terrified!!!
12:19 | Sorry i shouldn’t have snapped at you. I’m just kinda shaken up
Me: 12:20 | its alright be strong
12:21 | keep me updated okay? Ill worry if u suddenly stop talking to me…
Andrew: 12:25 | oh man hes moving around quickly from class to class I hope he skips mine
Me: 12:27 | do you have a god andrew?
Andrew: 12:27 | Wtf?
Me: 12:28 | No im just saying that if youre religious then you should pray for safety and deliverance
Andrew: 12:29 | Yeah that makes sense. The guy next to me is actually doing that rn
12:31 | So this is what fearing for life is like. My hands are so cold why would that be
12:32 | I dont want to die i always wanted to work for nasa i wanted ti be an austronat ehen i was a kid oh god fuck shit fucking hell man i cant i don’t want to die
12:33 | Hes getting closer im so scared dudecread my messages please be there please you’re the onky person i have
Me: 12:34 | i hope you end up fine
12:34 | im worried and scared
Andrew: 12:40 | FUCK I THIBK HES NEARBY I CAN HEAR SHOOTING REALY LOUD FUCJING HELL
Me: 12:40 | just stay wherecyou are and dont try to escapecor you might get shot!
Andrew: 12:41 | I KNOW
12:43 | I SAW HIS SHADOW THROUGH THE WINDOW
Me: 12:44 | oh fuck!
12:44 | maybe if your quiet theb he wont notice
Andrew: 12:49 | HES KICKING THE DOOR
12:49 | YOURE MY BEST FRIEND REMEMBER ME
12:50 | TELL MY FAMILY I LOVE THEM
12:50 | THE DOOR OPENDED HES IN
The door gave way soon under my violent kicks. The sound of it smashing into the adjoining wall felt like a proper signal for my grand entrance as I stepped in and began to fill my fellow students with an onslaught of bullets. I saw my dear, best friend Andrew hit the ‘send’ button for his last message before gazing up at me in speechless disbelief.